Sunday, March 15, 2020: It is day 3 of our temporary lockdown. We have gone without sports for (four?) days now, it still feels unreal. I was having some super bad anxiety about it all yesterday: I'm sitting at the kitchen table trying to figure out the Corneal Blink Reflex and I just get this crushing realization that I will no longer be able to ask my professors questions face to face, or be able to sit with my friends in class and occasionally zone out and eat a piece of chocolate. WHAT IF I CAN'T FIGURE OUT HOW THE CRANIAL NERVES ALL INTEGRATE TOGETHER CLIFF?! Slight mini panic attack- having the feeling of not being able to access something can be scary. Which is a weird thing to feel considering we live in the age of the internet where literally everything is accessible at the tip of your fingers ... I don't know it just won't be the same. I told Ryan that I was kind of struggling and he suggested we just relax on the couch and watch a movie -- he picks A Quiet Place. LMAO.
But the weird thing was that I woke up yesterday feeling pretty great. We slept in, and around 12:30 I was like, "I'm gonna make some dank ass breakfast." And I felt like Danny in that one scene in This Is The End where he wakes up and cooks all the food not knowing there's an apocalypse going on outside lol. I'm making omelets and sausage and potatoes, and I'm like hell yeah we EATIN up in here! And also we started our wedding registry, and I came up with a great idea for table setting shopping: you design an app that allows you to visualize certain foods on your table setting so that you can really picture yourself eating off these plates! Like I want to be able to visualize chicken tenders on these plates before I buy them, right? Yeah I know we aren't even to the first week of the lockdown yet and this is the shit I'm inventing ... basically, we're going to be millionaires when this is all over.
No but really, yesterday was tough. It was the realization that for the first time in my whole life, I wouldn't be watching March Madness or filling out a bracket (BUT there is this mammal bracket you guys can fill out, I will post the link at the end!). I wouldn't be watching the Masters, wouldn't be counting down the days to Opening Day. The ski resorts have all closed, I bet all the Texas and Florida people who were coming from spring break are HELLA PISSED. It's just weird: everything that has ever happened or that I've looked forward to this time of year is no longer a thing. It just poofed into thin air. Speaking of poofing into thin air, wouldn't it be dope if the Trump Administration could do that? lolz but seriously they're awful.
So today was a new day. I woke up and made some more good breakfast (I love breakfast but just always think I don't have the time to make it, but it turns out now I do so YAY!), studied some more cranial nerve integration without panicking, Ryan and I did a FaceTime wedding counseling with our church: basically, everything seemed normal. And it was a good day. And I knew that things were going to change in the next coming days but that's okay because you take it one day at a time and you get through it. So now I will get ready for bed by likely watching Captain Marvel because I'm watching all the Marvel movies in chronological order based on the time they took place, and I will wake up and see how tomorrow goes. And I will go to bed hoping everyone is doing the same as I am tomorrow, which is not being a dumbass and STAYING HOME!!! :)
Peace and Blessings,
Britt
PS: here is the link to the "March Mammal Madness" bracket! The first round is already done, but it''s still fun to fill out a bracket!!
http://mammalssuck.blogspot.com/2020/02/march-mammal-madness-2020.html
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